It's Like That: Remorse

It's Like That:  Remorse About the Way You Raised Your Kid

We left him somewhere and we were driving down a snowy mountain and then I insisted we go back because we couldn't leave him in that place when we would be gone way too long and I convinced the driver his father to turn around I said turn around! but of course it was too late.  Child protective services had taken him away.

It's like that.

Mistakes converted

into anxious dreams

combined with soap operas.

daily news,

your own felt childhood.

You get a phone call from him,

almost thirty, three states away.

If he says, "Hi Mom," in a particular way,

it's a wafer on your tongue.

Oh, don't judge yourself so harshly.

You will never know

what he needed from you,

what he did not.